i think sometimes because i'm the oldest out of all my friends that i think i have to be the cool one with all the advice and be able to look after people.  i can't lose my cool cause thats for everyone else.  i have to give good advice cause thats what people want to hear.  i can't randomly get emotional cause that would be out of place.  i feel like i have to be the big sister for all my friends and i want to do the best for them.  most of the time its a good job. but sometimes you just want to crash and have someone to pick you back up just to see how it feels to be on the bottom and be lifted to the top. to not worry about others but start to look at your own life. i don't even know whats going on.

~falsejoy